I can never find a tumblr. theme that suits me…

WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE PINK!?

I should learn to make my own. =v=

Just like one of my best friends who has been actively using tumblr. once again, I think I should try and follow suit, (only if there was time!) so that maybe I can let out some emotions, ramblings, or what nots out from my mind into a medium…

Maybe it’ll relieve some stress, but first things first, I need to find a tumblr. theme that suits me. xD

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1 year ago

Maze.

It’s quite amusing how things play out in our lives…whether they turn out positive or negative.

How fun would it be to be able to just watch our lives from a standpoint? Just sit back with some popcorn and watch our lives unfold without experiencing it ourselves.

But doing so, would take out all the meaning of our lives. I think I would seriously be bored. We are supposed to experience many things, happy or sad, in order to grow, right? 

Honestly, life is beautiful, and life can be cruel. It’s unfair, most of the time, but it’s what you do with your life that changes everything.

So, what do I want to do with my life?

What do I want most? What do I want to accomplish before my youth fades, before I am pressured to conform to society’s standards? What is it that drives me to continue? 

It pisses me off, that I have no idea. I haven’t been thinking about it much lately, but it is something that “haunts” me. I don’t know what I want to be, anymore. I live my life “day-to-day”. *sighs* I don’t feel like I’m on “auto-pilot” anymore, but…

I will say this, I am quite happy, right now. 

I’m very thankful for those in mine, whether they are near or far. I’m constantly missing those that I love dearly that I do not get to see very often.

& when I do have the time to sit and contemplate, I will start thinking of what it is it that I want to do, what I want to be, where I want to be, and WHO I want to be. 

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2 years ago
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The first “real” person I actually want to cosplay…

Mayu from DaizyStripper!

Especially this one, just because we have the same hair color (‘cept mine’s fading…).

I don’t think it’ll turn out the same, but it’ll be close, (I hope.. xD;;)

I’ll do it sometime, whenever I have time. I need to get a yellow plaid scarf like that and I’ll be set. :]

I definitely want to see & meet him again.

When they came to Otakon back in 2008, I confessed “my love” to him.

Me: *nervous high-pitched voice* ”Mayu-san?”

Mayu: Hm?

Me: Watashi wa Mayu ga daisuki desu! *scared look*

Mayu: *pause*… Ore mo! *rambles about the next live*

It was extremely embarrassing because 1.) I sounded like an American…no trace Japanese accent whatsoever & 2.) JUST BECAUSE.

I even have it on video, will I show you? No, I won’t. I’m taking that thing to the grave. I also called Rei, “Kazami” and then corrected myself. xD

Well, Mayu did wink at me later, while I was sitting there. :D I love that man, not gonna lie. He may not be the sexiest Jrocker out there, but I do love him. To be honest, I like Shuuya’s voice better than Yugiri’s  (Come on, Yugiri’s fangirls, let’s go, but he is a silly and fun man. He grows on you.). I do miss Clavier A LOT.  ”Love Story” is probably one of my favorite songs of all time. It is a goal of mine to learn to play it one day. (Secretly, I want Mayu to teach me). I really wonder where Shuuya is at though. He has an amazing voice.

The concert was fantastic. Daizy were the only ones I wanted to see, I don’t care much for The Underneath (Go ahead, scorch me! But I am sad to hear that they are disbanding ‘cause they are good). MarBell was very passionate too. Loved Mar, she lifted up her skirt, saw her panties while she danced, OMG, SO HOT. <3 She also cried, when she sang that one song that’s dedicated to her brother (*forgot the title atm*). She’s a beautiful and talented singer. Her guitarist is extremely charming. :] He took pictures of us while we were waiting for the autograph session to start.

It was an amazing & fun experience all together.

We’ll meet again, Mayu one day, without the help of an unnecessary person. >__>

(Will post about that person later…)

That’s it for now…

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2 years ago

I conform to share my thoughts.

After a long while, I’ve been thinking about online blogging again.

The medium? No idea.

Reincarnate my xanga? Pfft..Does anyone use xanga anymore?

Livejournal? I could never understand how to use it.

ameblo? Hah, can’t even figure out how to sign up. xD;; FAIL.

Ah, so tumblr it is.

Call me a conformist, I don’t care. As long as I don’t have a damn twitter. xP

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2 years ago